Monday, October 02, 2006


These words are not here to change the world. One can change the world, for instance, to start using these new biological-waste-only containers the street I live on has just been given. But this blog here... well, I don't know.

I have no lies or truth in what I say
there is no meaning
the words are numb and I am so afraid
there is no meaning

The Future of Speech happens to be among my favorite Katatonia songs. I still believe in words, though. Even too much. I take everything too serious. Jokes as well.

I so believe in the meaning of words.

When people meet, usually this question follows- how are you doing? A question which, in theory, enables many answers. However, most of us would say - okay. Even if we do not feel that way. Or - okay, but it could be better. Then, I guess, the conversation about one's state is (usually) finished. We all remain with our own feelings, with our own troubles. We close ourselves. And put on that happy there-is-nothing-wrong-with-me face.

Why is this how are you question needed at all? Do we really care how the other one is doing? Would we help the other one if she/he would burst into crying suddenly, when expressing her/his state... do we actually ask the other with the purpose to help her/him... or to rejoice with the other, in case of a happy answer?

I write in general here; perhaps I write a collection of some superficial thoughts. But I have been thinking about this a lot.

The power of words. The meaning of words. The emptiness of words...

Maybe I am in a bitter state at the moment; I have felt sort of trashy these days. And I still feel trashy. But I am afraid too. I am afraid that this how are you doing question has turned into an empty phrase. We actually don't care how the other one is doing. It is just a necessity one has to ask when it comes upon a conversation. A courtesy. Empty courtesy just everywhere.

Life is too full of empty phrases.

Underneath, real and bloody stuff is hidden. Real and bloody stuff floats hidden under the shiny cover of courtesy, as dangerous and destructive volcanoes are hidden under those glittering glaciers in Iceland.

The words get caught into emptiness - even when one really tries to express some meaning...

Words are losing their power. Words are losing their meaning.

Can one still believe into the words of the other? Can one still believe into her/his own words?
Ruosteiseksi kieli, sanat vaskisiksi... (Tenhi, Jäljen)


peter said...

STOCKHOLM (Reuters) - The lights are going out in Iceland this week so people can gaze at the night sky.

Authorities in the capital Reykjavik will turn off street lights on Thursday evening and people are also being encouraged to sit in their houses in the dark, writer Andri Snaer Magnason said on Wednesday.

While the lights are out, an astronomer will describe the night sky over national radio.

"We have a very beautiful sky as soon as we turn off the lights," Magnason, who came up with the idea, told Reuters.

The event is part of a film festival taking place on the small north Atlantic island, which gets most of its electricity from abundant thermal energy.

The lights are due to go off at 10 p.m. (11 p.m. British time), about two hours after nightfall, for half an hour.

Magnason said the capital's population of around 250,000 might be able to see the Northern Lights, a flickering curtain of light often seen in northern climes which is caused by solar particles being caught in the Earth's magnetic field.

Two other Icelandic towns will also turn off their lights

...still feel trashy?:)

great post btw.

Banshee said...

Meni se pa ne zdi, da je "kako si" vedno prazna fraza. Najbrž je odvisno od tega, kako se s človekom, ki te to vpraša, poznaš ali zaupaš. Če je to prijatelj, lahko izkoristiš možnost in rečeš "slabo", ter poveš zakaj. Jaz imam s tem kar dobre izkušnje. Tako si lahko priboriš pri osebi, ki te je pripravljena poslušati, čas in prostor zate in za tvoje tegobe. Mogoče ti bo prijatelj lahko pomagal. Lahko se pa seveda odločiš, da ne boš govorila o sebi in odgovoriš površinski "v redu". No, jaz pač mislim, da imamo v vsakem trenutko možnost izbire, kako bomo to vprašanje razumeli in kako natančno bomo nanj odgovorili. :)

kaneli said...

First comment - thanks for writing it! Now I would like to be in Iceland... Northern Lights are something I have always wanted to experience. But totally Icelandic idea, this ''lights off''.

Yes, I still feel trashy, unfortunately.

kaneli said...

Drugi komentar - ja, se strinjam in vem, da so različna odstopanja. :) Pišem bolj tako, na splošno...

Hja, se pa lahko tudi zgodi, da vprašanje vzameš bolj resno kot tvoj sogovornik... in razlagaš stvari, potem pa ugotoviš, da drugega pravzaprav le to ne zanima v večji meri.

Aelfsciene said...

Hja, jaz bi tut rekla, da je precej govora praznih fraz ... Meni je ze "dober dan" nekaj takega, oz se bolje - "dan". Jaz to recem recimo sredi noci, ce nekoga srecam - iz navade.

"Kako si" je podobna scena. Saj ne, da bi to vprasala cisto povrsinsko, samo samega vprasanja si pa isto navajen kot tistega "dan".

kaneli said...

Lepo, da se je razvila ''debata''... :)

Ja, bi se strinjala tudi s tem -vprašanje ''kako si'' lahko izzveni površinsko zaradi vsesplošne vljudnostne rabe.

Pah, trenutno sem itak tako besna na vsakršno medsebojno komunikacijo, da bi z veseljem šla narest en ''punk'' komad. Z vsemogočimi kletvicami.

Trashy feeling indeed! (Perkele!)

kaneli said...

Also something came to my mind.

Saying something, but then not doing that.Or saying something very nice just out of being polite, not actually thinking that way. All that stuff like ''I am looking forward to...''.

Phrases again. This sucks.

Heh, I think it's time for sleep... have been working on that thesis-addition from late afternoon... almost untill now. :)