THIS WEEK'S MUSIC

Some time ago I have noticed how huge amount of inspiration I can get from music. As an occasional playwright. My latest play, for instance, would not become as it is if there would not be those bands I have been listening while working on the text. Atmospheres, thoughts and much more music can give me. Music is very significant for me. I have always put a lot of importance on good lyrics. Thus I really like those bands that can offer good and meaningful words. On the other hand, I also like to listen songs in languages I do not speak. Languages add their own soundscapes to the music. And yes, of course I do listen to some Slovenian bands too. Those more arty, odd and alternative. And yes, I also used to be Laibach fan some years ago.

Things I dream about. I would like to write lyrics for some band. For alternative kind of band. Metal, dark rock and so on. Oh, and I would so like to do videos for such bands as described above. That is even more suitable for my profession. I would write script for the video. So that the director and the band could put it into images. I would so try to do music video once. Hei, any alternative band out there searching for a poet or scriptwriter? I can prove myself devoted worker...

Last week I have been given new pile of good music. Many thanks again to the friend that has sent it from this cold distant land called Suomi Finland. Sure they have good musical stuff up there; not to mention only the Finns have won last Eurosong. I guess it would also be nice and interesting to visit one of those festivals they arrange in summer. I'd like to see good local bands live. However, during the week I have been listening a lot to MAJ KARMA. Actually Maj Karman Kauniit Kuvat (Maj Karma's Beautiful Pictures); the band has shortened their name.

So here above you can see posted one Maj Karma's video. Valaiden laulu meaning Song of Whales. Killer track indeed, with some special lyrics. The video seems quite okay, the band members are cute and sexy, despite the video could be done slightly better. Khm, now let's try how this posting actually works... and enjoy the music!

P.S.: I am one silly reminiscent person. Thus I remember... and I can write too that now it is a year since I have traveled to Finland for the first time. To practice Nanbudo on ice and snow. The weather was even not that cold as expected. Yet I did not manage to see any Aurora Borealis. And so on.

FEELS LIKE APRIL

Last month I wrote one post on snow. Today, the lawn here where I live looks almost like this. In mid winter. From the telly news have just come that today had been the warmest January day in Slovenia after more than 100 years. Beware now. 15 degrees Celsius. Above zero. Despite it should be 5 minus at least, snow, ice, and all that once natural winter thingies. When I passed this building overlooking Trg republike (Republica Square) which has a huge display showing time, date and temperature, the display indeed told me it had been 14 degrees Celsius. In late afternoon. Seems things are turning insane.

I had some errands to do and since I still feel slight effects of my illness, I was walking around the centre of Ljubljana slowly almost half of the day. Sunny day. Yet the sun felt so sharp. And then, this weird warmth. I was walking with my jacket open, around my neck light silky scarf I would use in spring. Some people are even wondering around in T-shirts. Others are eating ice-cream in the middle of the street. In the old town I saw one bar put tables and chairs for people to sit outside. Under that so sharp sun.

The air is mild, full of sudden warm brightness. There is such an odd smell of spring. Ages too early that smell has arisen. Birds are far too loud and lively as well. Small spring flowers, green grass growing. It feels like being in one science-fiction movie, where the city is trapped under fake atmosphere. Artificial feeling of spring. And one just cannot enjoy it, though the weather is so nice. I can still wear those trainers I was walking around with in August; yet the fact I am saving my winter shoes is not something to rejoice. I only wonder what will be going on in actual spring, as well as later in summer.

Now we should really think about this fucked up climate... if it is not far too late already, eh?

BURN THE REMEMBRANCE

Not in the training today. Viruses just keep bugging; they have managed to cause one lovely overall weakness. My mind also affected. So I will try to rest. And write.

For some time I have felt an urge to make kind of resume of the year just passed; I just could not make up my mind how to put things down properly. And perhaps I still cannot. Whatever. I can say my 2006 was a hell of a year. By all means. Very good and very bad, with some success, and with failure. Oh, in a poetic way I can write my inner worlds were burning. More than years before, I guess. Kept burning. And you know that fire can be so nice, cosy and pleasant as well as it can be dangerous, destructive, and it can cause pain... with such many-faced flames my worlds have been burning. I can be so creative. And so destructive too.

Memories. Making a resume of some past brings out various memories. Once I have found out those good memories start to hurt me if the present has turned different. Like if the present is dull, empty, bitter. In general I somehow cannot look back on something that once was good with sweet remembrance. The lack feels too big, the missing too strong. Remembering some good past cannot make my reality better. Such remembrance makes the present looking even more sad, oh my.

Changes. I have always had troubles with those. Well, not if the situation changes for better. If the situation turns better, I can remember bad things that have passed with no harm, thus thinking over my development. But if things turn different, for worse, more bitter, then... I just cannot recall all the good that has passed without feeling that sting in my heart. In this case, the gap between what once was and now does not exist anymore, that kind of a gap and all those memories burning within it... well, that hurts as hell.

SATURDAYS OUT

Saturday evening. And Kaneli sits infront of the comp. Still slightly sick. Oh, this lousy physical feeling provokes sadness too. Emo Kaneli. But she has obligations next week; this health condition needs to get better. So she rather stayed at home to enjoy lazy and boring in-front-of-the-telly-or-comp evening. Yet now she can reveal where she would go if feeling better.

It seems some of my friends and me have grown a habit. There is a bar which turns into undergroundish sub-cultural meeting place. Every Saturday; for a year now. Some years ago similar metal-evenings occured on Mondays in another, now abandoned place. Oh c'mon, Mondays. However, this location and timing seem much better. Even without a crowd of metal fans the place is not any fancy hole for fancy youngsters. Please observe a part of the bar's wall on this very artistic picture I once took. It is a cosy place in it's special shabby way. This Fabrka (meaning Fact'ry). Or to be precise: Metal-Evenings, actually Devil's Hours, in Fabrka.

As expected there is various metal played all evening, we drink everything, from coffee to vodka, and we chat. Yeah well, what else to do. And eat crisps we smuggle in. Until those guys downstairs do not start to shout ''Last orders!'' as loud as the end of the world would be approaching. Sometimes people spill beer on us or our coats. Sometimes our chats turn so very girlish. Hei, one nice group of hellcats we are! And then some of us gets happy when one preferred band happens to be played. Well, it is somehow different if metal fan's preferred band is played within metal-evening. In a way it really feels more special than playing it at home...

RISE AND SHINE

Here it is. The very new year. Huh, I feel I should be writing some very deep words. Yet I feel empty these days. So I will just write out from this emptiness. Let's do some bloggy personal blah-blah first. The New Year's Eve party I was in with my friends was alright. Thanks again for relaxed evening. Which lasted until late morning. Also I guess it will be hard to forget those rockets the neighbours had. Just imagine, there were some very shiny rockets that produced very special screams while flying. The screams sounded as one would keep sending crying babies into the sky. Kafka as well as Munch-like celebration. I am only slightly ashamed since I fall asleep so nicely on that sofa in the middle of jolly crowd, hehe. Then Eläkeläiset woke me up for a while again. Oh, and later I had some strange science-fiction dreams. Actually I think I had never had science-fiction dreams before.

This week I have got slightly sick. Of course this week, when trainings started. And I have felt hectic. For the first, I blame those nasty viruses, for the second this future I have to plan, somehow. Apply for some stuff, do something, be more active, write, just do it.

Okay, now let's move to some bigger blah-blah one can get just everywhere in Slovenia. New year has started to shine whit the glow of Slovenian euro coins we in this country are now obliged to use. Yeah, now we seem to be a part of great Europe indeed. Whatever. But how do I feel this euro thingies? Perhaps it is too soon for me to judge about this change more seriously. Well, I have never been so very much attached to my own country. Still all of a sudden it feels kind of... strange. Interesting as well as odd. And yes, people are confused a bit. Also some guys with the stall in the middle of Ljubljana seem to be making huge business with the sell of those special euro wallets and, as they shout, cheap euro calculators.

So euro we have. Good luck. Hei, but more I await the time I will travel again, thus spreading these funny coins with lots of Slovenian words around other parts of Europe.