Eating habits. I am vegetarian. Well, not totally. I eat fish. So, fish as my occasional dish is what does not make me true vegetarian. However, this post will not be about my vegetarianism... it will be mainly about fish-eating thingies.
I do eat fish, yet there are some facts that are hard for me to accept. Of course, the fish has to be dead before one eats it. If it is already dead, well, then... I would eat it more easily. But there are some inns here that offer very fresh fish. Live fish are swimming in tanks, usually in front of the inns. The guests can see well how very fresh the fish will be in case of an order. When one orders it, the fish is caught, killed and so on... Thus, when one orders a fish, this eater actually determines one fish in the tank with death. This is what makes me feel uncomfortable. Well, yeah, it is a part of human nature. A part of Nature by all means. Nature itself. But still... it hurts me to determine a living thing with death. One moment it is out there in the tank, swimming, then one enters an inn and... that is the end of the fish. The fish was not caught and dead before. One's decision has determined its future. This is what bothers me.
On Saturday, I am attending Nanbudo seminar. Our club organizes it for members only; trainings outdoors, in nature. The registration for the seminar included a decision about the menu one would like to eat. We had this list of menu-options to choose for lunch. Among other stuff, there was grilled fish, too. It sounded tasty. Grilled fish. But then, these thoughts have emerged. If I would choose a fish now, I might determine one in this moment very alive creature with the end of life. I imagined a fish swimming somewhere. Now at the moment of my decision, the particular fish is alive, not aware of anything, not aware of my words... but when the orders will arrive to the inn, then... Alright, it might have been dead already. Frozen for some time. Or it will be dead by the end of the week anyway, either I order it or not. And one day, it will die for sure. But still... I rather do not risk to make a determination.
I guess these brief thoughts on determination with death reach far beyond today's fishy story; even further if explored and written more deeply. However, finally, I have chosen totally vegetarian menu.