TAKE MY FEAR, UKKONEN

Jätä pelko taaksesi tänään Ukkonen

Take the fear back today, Thunder

Tärisyttää tannerta, mä pakenen

Shake the ground, I will flee

Turha kultani pelätä on, pelätä ikävää

It is pointless, my dear, to be afraid, afraid of dull

Turha sellaista pelätä on, pelätä elämää

It is pointless to be afraid of such, afraid of life

Maj Karma - Ukkonen

This particular song has lately been among my favorites. Well, but what could I write about the week that has just passed? Not much has happened. My life as it would rest for a while; it seems that way. Yet it is not so, not at all. There are some decisions I will have to make. There are some more inner things I will have to overcome. Think stuff over and so on. Perhaps I could say that I feel some strong storms raging within me... tearing me apart, striking me down.

Even the most interesting outer event of last week was - that I was caught in a storm. Very real storm. Yep, the weather has turned stormy. Nice refreshment in this too hot and too heavy air. So, I was in the city centre when the storm burst out. When I headed to one pizza place, lightning and thunder was quite frightening. It felt as it would be striking very close, just above my head.

I am not afraid of storms, though. Actually, I like them. Despite the lightning severely affected my modem a couple of years ago. Despite the lightning can kill. Well, this is nature. I still adore storms. Also, I don't care to get soaking wet in heavy rain. I so like rain... I so like flash and thunder. Such a fantastic spectacle of nature...

As a fan of Nordic mythology (and as a devoted metal fan, hehe) I have a silver necklace with Thor's hammer Mjöllnir. Thor was Nordic god of thunder. Getting myself familiar with mythologies, mainly Greek, Norse and Finnish, I have already been thinking about this overall popularity of thunder gods. Or if I help with Wikipedia's words here. People of many cultures have praised a thunder god, a personification of the seemingly magical forces of thunder and lightning. Frequently, the thunder god would be the chief or king of the Gods e.g. Zeus in Greek mythology, or otherwise a close relation e.g. Thor in Norse mythology, son of Odin. Our Slavic thunder god, gromovnik, was Perun. The Finnish one is called Ukko, sometimes known as Perkele (huh). Well, Ukko's weapon is also a hammer called Ukonvasara (Ukko's Hammer), or an axe or a sword, by which he struck lightning. Ukko nowdays means an old man whereas ukkonen is - thunder.

Today, I was watching again how black clowds gathered. The wind literally blew them over the sky; as they would fell over the forest nearby. The storm stroke again. So, I would ask all thunder gods to make my mind clear with their roaring voices. I would ask them to cool my heart with fresh cold rain... I would ask them to burn my doubts and fears within the fire of lightning, thus making another godess out of me... strong, cold and fearless (beautiful I am already).

There really is divine power in thunderstorms.