CRANKY SUNDAY

What a gray, quiet and lazy Sunday. Shitty weather. Such a dull spring. Yesterday, I had a working Saturday. Thus it felt very nice to rest today. Yet I am not in the jolly mood. It is that time of the month which makes me particularly cranky. I feel angry, I feel empty, I feel a bit sad. My horoscope-forecast for the next week seems pretty bad, too... so I worry even more. Well, but seriously. First of all, I have to tell dear people for which I should write e-mail replies that I was not in the proper mood to write any decent stuff today; except for this blog. Yep, cranky Kaneli. Oh, fuck everything! Fuck this weather, fuck the stupid time-change, fuck them cold and ignorant bastards that care only about their arses, fuck the... err, okay, I'll stop now. However, even this I am about to publish today is something I wanted to post sometime earlier, but I was occupied with my work.

The thingie here is one of those surveys that seem quite popular in the world of bloggers. As an active member of this huge virtual community, I have wondered what these surveys had been all about... and how would it feel when one would answer the questions. So, I have taken two of such surveys, and mixed them randomly. Feels like fun. Nevertheless this blogging phenomena is all about making very private so very public... by all means.

1. How old are you?
26

2. Have you been missing anything today?

I have. Some particular people, some particular places, better mood.

3. Have you realized something new today?

Not today… but within the last weeks, I have. Perhaps.
4. When is the last time you got drunk and danced on a bar?
I got slightly drunk during those birthday parties in Fabrka, but I did not dance. Too bad. Next time I will!

5. What did you want to be when you were growing up?
Biologist. I am still interested in nature and wildlife. Why the fuck did I went to study theatre?!

6. Get up early or sleep in?

Sleeeeep in.
7. A secret that you wouldn't mind everyone knowing?
I have some problems with communication, and I really want to get rid of them.
8. Who is the last person that said to you ’’I love you’’?

There was nobody lately. Oh my.

9. Favorite non-sexual thing to do at night with a girl/guy?
Night walk in the woods.
10. Your favorite place?
A forest and a lake. A lake in the forest.

11. Favorite guilty pleasure?
Chocolate, ice-cream and lately also some sweet cocktails with vodka.

12. Your favorite lunch meat?
I do not eat meat. Only fish. And squid.

13. Favorite style of underwear for the opposite sex?

Black and simple. Or no underwear at all, yes.

14. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth?
Castle’s courtyard.

15.What are you afraid of at the moment?

To be hurt and rejected again.

16. Do you see yourself married in the next five years?
Only cosmos knows the answer.

17. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back?
Huh... I can be far too possessive as well as very jealous.
18. Who do you like?

My friends.

19. Does anyone like you?

I hope my friends do.
20. Do you like being with people?

Sometimes I do a lot, though there are days (as today, for instance) when I desperately need to be alone.

21. The song you hear playing in your head at the moment?
Sydänkohtauksia by Zen Café. However, I am listening to Paradise Lost right now.

22. Which is the last song that has made you cry?

The last one with such effect is The Deepest of All Hearts by My Dying Bride.

23. Have you ever been on the radio/TV?

I can be heard on the radio once a month since I run my own show. But I have also been on the telly. Twice as a representative of Slovenian Tolkien Society and most of the other times as a young Slovenian playwright.

24. Have you ever liked a person that has treated you badly?
Oh yes...

25. What are you wearing at the moment?
Some sporty and loose pants, T-shirt, sweater, underwear.

26. Three things you do daily?

Sleep, write, practice Nanbudo.

27. How much money do you have at the moment?
Not much yet since I am still waiting for some nice payments to be given. Bloody jobs in this cultural field of mine where one has to wait for the money, even if the job has already been done…
28. Are you wearing socks at the moment?

Yes, I wear these too. Woolly purple ones, with big silver snowflakes.
29. The book you are reading these days?

Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance by Robert M. Pirsing. Also, I have just bought the English translation of Kafka on the Shore by Haruki Murakami. And of course I could not resist to read a few pages immediately...
30. What do you really want to be doing right now?
Traveling to one particular land up North.